I put out to the Universe that I wanted to come into my feminine more. The majority of my life I’ve always had the ‘I can do everything myself’ mentality. It’s not a bad thing because I would feel a sense of accomplishment afterward. But the part that I am lacking in the feminine aspect is to allow the masculine to help and protect the feminine.
So, I went to Lowe’s to get some wood to use as a target for my ninja stars throwing. I picked up this large panel of wood and it fell straight onto my toes! I was wearing sandals by the way. My heart was pounding, my body tensed up, I was feeling cold and sweaty, and my toes felt like they were on fire! I started using my tools to help regulate my nervous system. I started to think to myself, “Ah dangit Tracy, you could have just asked for help!”
After this happened, a man walked by and asked if I needed help to put the wood in the cart. Then another man helped me get a worker to cut the wood. Then a dad and his son helped load the wood into my car (he had to puzzle it in bc it was still big even after it was cut!), and on top of that, he helped me by bringing the cart back to the store!
After I had my realization and learned my lesson, all the masculine came to help! Oh, on top of all that, my toes were bleeding but I just played it cool so no one would notice. When I got home, I cleaned my foot and sandal and it was bruised and cut. Hard for me to walk properly but I’m grateful for the lesson!
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